November hurts

We had plans to go see some family the weekend before Halloween. We were taking Bean to see her great grandmothers in north Texas. On Friday, I decided that waiting until next weekend was a bad idea. Call it intuition, call it a hunch, call it whatever you want.

I marched into hubman’s office and told him we needed to pack up and leave today. This was Friday, October 20th. He didn’t ask questions. He just finished up his work for the day and we were on the road.

On Saturday, October 21st, we walked in to surprise Grandmom Grace. She had no idea we were coming to see her and to see the smile on her face when we walked in was absolutely the best thing ever.

Grandmom held our sweet Ady, gave her lots of hugs and kisses and told her she’s just beautiful. We ate lunch with Grandmom and visited for a few hours before Ady got cranky and decided it was nap time.

It was the hug. The hug when we said “see ya later” just hit different. I told Grandmom that we’d be back for her birthday, but somehow I knew… I knew in my heart that we wouldn’t be having a party this year. Though teary eyes and with a heavy heart I hugged her a bit tighter. I kissed her cheek and tried not to let her see my face as I walked away. Hearing her talk about how precious our daughter is melted my heart.

Later that week, Grandmom ended up in the hospital. She fought like the dickens and eventually went to rehab to get stronger.

Unfortunately, getting stronger and going back home to be her feisty self wasn’t how this story ends.

We lost my precious Grandmom Grace on Thursday, November 16th. Knowing that she got to know our Ady is the only thing I wanted. I wanted her to hold her, talk to her, love her, AND SHE DID. Ady will always know her Grandmom Grace. She’ll hear stories and we’ll share memories with her as much as much as we possibly can.

As I sit here at 4am typing this, tomorrow we are going to Grandmom’s visitation and Monday we’ll have her service to say our final goodbyes. Almost to the day, we lost another precious grandmother, Nonnie 6 years ago. November hurts.

I hope one day Ady knows how incredibly special she was to her. Grandmom thought Ady was the best little princess in the entire world.

I’d like to think that Ady and the rest of the family didn’t lose Grandmom, we just gained one of the best angels there ever was to have wings.

Welcome home, Grandmom. Please watch over us because this world is cruel and we need all the help we can get from our angels. I love you. Ady loves you. You’ll NEVER be forgotten.

View Grandmom’s obituary here.

I’m not sure I have anymore words for right now. My heart hurts. I’ve lost my best friend. So for now, I’ll leave you with some unsolicited advice: Call your grandparents. Call your parents. Call your siblings and your cousins. Go see them if you can. Hug them tight. TELL THEM YOU LOVE THEM! You never know when that will be the last time.

Hopfully my next post will be a bit more cheerful. For now, I’m going to flip my pillow over and try to fall asleep so that I’m not a complete zombie when I see my family tomorrow.

I LOVE YOU ALL. SERIOUSLY.

Our Baby’s 1st Birthday

October. Our baby girl’s first birthday. It’s party time. Make a wishlist. Pick a theme. Find a venue. Order everything. Buy the smash cake. Decorate the smash cake. Order the party dresses. Borrow an air pump from the neighbors. Blow up the balloons. Visit craft stores for the perfect candy board. Trash the kitchen making treats for the party. Every thing has to be PERFECT for our little girl’s first birthday. It HAS TO BE.

We’ve worked so hard to have this precious little lady perfectly made for us. To celebrate her first year was something so special to me and the people that love her dearly, I wanted this day to be perfect.

So here it is, a small glimpse into our preparations, the party day, and her cake smash photos.

It was an entire week of making memories. Yes, of course SHE won’t remember any of this, but momma, daddy, and the rest of her friends and family sure will. I couldn’t have done a single bit of this without the help of our amazing family and friends stepping in to lend a helping hand, a few dollars here and there, and mostly, their love.

To everyone who made our little girl’s first birthday so special, I want to send out my sincerest gratitude. Her birthday is always going to be special, but one day, she’ll look back at these photos and see her first friends. She’ll see the family that drove HOURS to celebrate with her. She’ll see the smiles on our faces and know without a doubt that she’s loved by so many people.

THANK YOU!!

Here’s to our little girl, she’s perfect in every way.
Happy Birthday, Adalyn.

Welcome to the world, little Bean!

I’m sure you’re wondering where I’ve been for the past year and I’m here to tell you it’s been a whirlwind! 2022 was our best year yet.

In January 2022, Hubman and I decided to go to Mexico for another round of IVF. We went on a whim, it was a spur-of-the-moment decision. On February 4th, 2022, we transferred 2 embryos and headed back home.

Sunday, October 16th, 2022 our perfect baby girl joined our family. She weighed 5lbs and 14oz and is absolutely the best thing that has ever happened to us.

We now have a 4-month-old daughter.

Welcome to the world, little Bean. Momma and Daddy love you more than you’ll ever know!

We are SO GRATEFUL for Dr. Garza in Matamoros Mexico. He changed our lives in an instant.

I’ll be posting more later, as you can imagine, my hands (and heart) are very full!
Until next time,

Rest Well, Sweet Mimzee

**Trigger Warning**
**Pet Loss**

When we came home from Barbados, we noticed that our sweet, 9.5-year-old kitty was acting unwell. We thought it might just be depression from us being gone for a while, but then we started thinking about it and she had been a little off for a few weeks leading up to our Barbados trip.

Zelda & Mimzee enjoying their first plate of milk.

I kept an eye on her and made sure she was still eating, drinking, peeing, and pooping… you know, all the things you want to see happening in your little fur loves. She became skinnier and skinnier as the days went by and then we started to see bathroom accidents in places they shouldn’t have been. I was practically begging her to eat, and serving her treats, food, and water in bed.

Cuddles.

My mom came to visit me while Hubman was out of town for the holiday. I think we both knew what was going to happen that weekend. Here I am, mourning the loss of our embaby and trying to get my body back to normal after our first round of IVF, and my sweet kitty was trying to leave me too.

Instead of growing our family, it was actually shrinking. We were losing our sweet Mimzee to cancer.

My mom and I loved on Mimzee most of the weekend; making sure she was warm and comfortable. But Saturday night was when we realized that something had to be done. Our sweet baby Mimzee was in so much pain. I sat on the bathroom floor with her until 3 in the morning. We both cried. She was hurting and I didn’t know how to fix it.

At 3am, I finally gave in and tried to clean her with a shampoo wipe to freshen her up a bit, then I wrapped her in her favorite cuddle blanket and laid in bed with her next to me so tightly, to try to warm her and calm her. I was hoping maybe, just maybe we both could get some sleep.

My heart was breaking into a thousand pieces. I knew this was going to be the last time I laid in bed and held our cuddle bug. The best hugger in the whole house was letting me love her for just a little bit longer.

Hubman wasn’t home to give her pets, belly rubs, or even say goodbye. It was heart-wrenching.

One of her last photos. *sniff*

The next morning, we took sweet Mim to the ER. After spending all day there, we finally got the news that we all knew was coming. Sweet Mimzee Cat was laid to rest on December 19th. Her G’ma was by her side, as this sensitive and heartbroken kitty momma couldn’t bear to witness her transition.

Mimzee’s last photo.

We love Mim dearly, and she’s already missed more than words can express.
Rest well, sweet Mim. You’ll ALWAYS be our “Little Bitty Pretty One!”

Sister kitty, Zelda, will keep your basket warm. She misses you too.

Love your babies a little harder tonight. Give the dogs some cheese and catnip the kitties.
Give them a nose boop and lots of kisses.
Play tug of war extra long time and don’t stop giving those belly rubs until your arm falls off.
Tell them you love them.

Sorry for the downer… This year has been hard.
Happy Holidays, lovies.
See you next time,