Well hello! It’s been a minute since I’ve updated my site and for good reasons too! I’m sure you all are wondering where I’ve been and why I stopped writing so much… Or maybe not, that’s cool too. So here’s a quick little update to recap the past few weeks.

First of all – let’s address the vegan diet thing. As many of you have noticed, (and so nicely pointed out, EVERY TIME) I am not following a plant-based diet at this time. I made it well over 2 months which was well over my first set goal. I learned a lot about myself during the “vegan journey” and I’m actually extremely proud of myself for sticking to it for a long as I did. I haven’t given up on it yet, that’s for certain, I’m simply taking a small little break.

Since my last blog post, I’m happy to say that I’m still losing weight. Not as rapidly as before, because mmmmm…. cheeseburgers, however, a slow and steady loss is alright with me. (For now!)

“Better living through chemistry.”
– Dearest

I went for a few weeks where I wouldn’t eat at all. Maybe a few pieces of fruit now and then, but mostly nothing, just lots and lots of water and Altoids. SO HEALTHY, right? I was in a downward spiral and I let my depression take control and bring me down. It was a dark few weeks but I eventually managed to pull myself out of that little train wreck I had gotten myself into. I went from compulsively overeating to not eating at all. I got sick, I suffered from stomach pains and headaches, it was just terrible. Not doing that again! I saw my doctor because I knew things were getting out of control. After a few medicine switches, all is well with my mind again. As a dear friend of mine would say, “Better living through chemistry.”

So what’s next? Well, many of you have heard me say that I’ve wanted to do something a bit more forceful in the way of getting my life back on track. I’ve been talking about having weight loss surgery for years. YEARS! I’ve been doing research for so long, I’ve visited with a small handful of doctors about which procedure would be best for me. I’ve backed out it because of financial reasons or because something just didn’t feel quite right. I wasn’t ready back then. I wasn’t in the right frame of mind to have made the right decision, however, the thought of having some type of surgery to help me start making better choices and take better care of my body has always been on my mind. I was ashamed of admitting this at first because I was afraid people would say I’m taking the easy way out.

“Losing weight isn’t that hard. Just get up and move. Stop eating. Drink water.”
– Fitness guru friend

I’m finally in a place where I can very PROUDLY say that I am having weight loss surgery. I had my first appointment a few weeks ago and tomorrow morning I go in for my endoscopy. You guys have been so supportive of my journey so far, that I’ve decided to share my experience with you guys from the get-go. There will be lots of pictures, information, and of course updates with each passing day after the procedure is done. I am so beyond excited for this opportunity. I truly feel like I’m being given another shot at life and I’ll be damned if I fuck this up.

I know you all have questions about what type of surgery I’m having and when it is and yada yada yada… I’ll get to that another time, my alarm clock says it’s time to get dressed and stuff so, for now, I must go. (Trust that I’d rather sit here with no pants on all day… but adulting blows) I’ll post more information tonight.

Thanks for hanging around this long. It was fun!
Hugs and love and stuff,